Wednesday, December 8, 2010
I think I am suffering from some form of mental disorder with the symptoms:
1) Inferiority complex
2) Paranoid
3) Pessismism
To others, I MAY be considered blessed? I don't know.. But deep inside, I dont feel that why. Maybe I have too high expectations of myself. Even with certain achievements, I still feel equally lousy about myself and that set me thinking, would it be better to be abit uglier/more dumb/have less talent but feel good about myself or be smarter/more good looking/more talented but still feel lousy about myself? Somehow.. Compliments, achievements and so on are like sweets, LOW GI. Give u a boost in ur confidence lvl for maybe 1 day? But it plunged back down after that. And wait, somehow it will get worse, because the achievements made you compare with someone else even better than you are, then you will feel inferior again. One may say be satisfied with what you have, but hello? Is there anyone out there who can say they are satisfied with what they have currently? Sure or not? you must be kidding me. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh..... This feeling sucks..Labels: emo
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